I really need a place to vent because I've been an absolute mess today. I took my daughter, she's 4 months old to the ER this afternoon cause she's been extra fussy today and right before I took her, she had a bowel movement that was black and I mean black. So I got scared at took her to the ER. Doc said it could just be her food digested too fast or not fast enough or she could be getting sick but there was no blood in her stool. This isn't her first time in the ER, she's had stuff going on before where I've taken her cause I worry. She had her complications when she was born so I'll admit I'm alittle overprotective. My husband stayed home with our 2 year old son and he's messaging me these stupid questions that he knows the answer too. Well I'm dealing with what's going on with our daughter, everything turned out okay, we were discharged and went home. I come home and have a breakdown asking my husband why am I responsible for everything (remembering meds, bills, dinners, groceries, etc) it's too much for one person by themselves. Well then while I'm trying to recollect myself he comes in and tells me his mom called and asked why I took our daughter to the ER. He tells her and she says she's in the medical field and, she's not accusing me of this, but if I keep taking our kids to the ER they will flag their files as some type of syndrome by proxy. First off, I'm sorry I'm a protective mother. Sure I can be alittle over protective but I worry about my kids. Second, now I'm angry and hurt even more cause I feel attacked like my mothering is being judged. I want to make something clear I HATE being the center of attention. I've been a black sheep out of the spotlight my whole life. I would NEVER do anything to make my kids sick or make false statements like that. Only thing I'm guilty of is loving and caring for my babies. I do apologize for this long message and vent I just.....I don't know........I feel like I can't make anyone happy and I hate when I am judged...... I'll admit when I get scared about something I start to panic, especially with my daughter she's only 4 months. I just want her to be happy and healthy. Thanks to anyone who listened?
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