Anyone else suffer from ptsd pregnancy?
This is my third pregnancy, my first is from a relationship of 7 years.
It was clear that we were just kids, and our relationship wasn’t strong enough to last. We were two different people and I had a lot of growing up to do. (Severe post partum and unaware of it)
Lead me to my previous relationship where I felt he got me pregnant on purpose. Which was a lot of infidelity on his part, (during and after pregnancy)
My current relationship is my last and final attempt at love with somebody else this way.
I suffer from ptsd because of my last relationship and it’s insane, that our mind and body can make us feel a type of way toward our growing bellies and the life within us
I went from hating being pregnant again, being put on Zoloft to it not working with me to being on and off with “I’m happy I’m pregnant” to “he ruined me”
I have started wearing crop tops or clothing that shows my belly and why? It makes me feel connected
I went to pee, stood in the mirror, looked at my big belly… 2 more months 18 days and 23 hours (yes I have it on countdown) til I meet my little boy.
Carrying my first son.
Something about carrying him makes me feel honored, proud, like I did something right.
I suffer from ptsd but I will not allow it to destroy the love I have for my son.
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