You are going to become a mother for the first time!

So y’all, quick vent... So basically my ex (child’s father) of 2 years just finalized our relationship because he said for the past week it’s been arguments and he didn’t feel respected or heard. I felt so bad because naturally I would want to be my mans peace and his feelings mean everything to me, my hormones been out of thwack from the stress, discomfort and anxiety . So I apologize, acknowledged my wrong doing, and said I would work on it and to please be patient with me. I pleaded with him cause I also wanted my son to have a chance of growing up in a two parent household. Long story short, he said that he’s not a one woman’s man and the only way we’d get back together is if I allow him to sleep with multiple women and I can’t get behind that and he knew from the start I was strictly monogamous. I told him in the past that my worst fear is becoming a single mother (I even opted for an abortion if he felt like this was going to be the case) and I feel like he used that to his advantage to try and fulfill his sick fantasy. He picked having multiple women over ensuring our son the best future. And for that I lost all respect for him. He decided to lay this on me 2 weeks before I have to give birth and just when I felt all that needed to be done is to prepare for the arrival of my son, I have to worry about how I’m going to make it through as a single mother.

My biggest fear is SIDS?? .. is there anyway you can try to prevent it or no .. becoming a new mother I’m worried about everything

I just want to publicly acknowledge which Im sure mamas will agree that being a mother saved my life. Giving in wasnt an option and though Im not perfect I still have so much to change permanently but becoming a mother taught me I can put myself last when Ive always looked at myself as selfish for how I lived my life. As a young adult Id numb myself through drinking and partying and sleeping around I have a wonderful mother and family but I always felt alone and being a mother even though we feel alone sometimes in raising our kids I dont ever feel lonely my God given purpose is my children and I dont know what I did right to deserve to be called mama but i am forever grateful

No advice about kids / pregnancy but .. has anyone had problems with their own mother once becoming pregnant/mother? I feel like raising my children is bringing up a bunch of horrible memories of my child hood (not that it was all bad.) but just the bad times, Also me and my mom have argued way more and become so distant since i became a mom. She belittles my issues and tells me basically “just deal with it, ive done it everyone does” etc. i only have hubby for a support system, the rest of my family doesnt help at all, i look at my kids and would do anything for them yet, my mom doesnt look at me in that way. My mom always favored my sister over me, and now shes favoring my daughter over my son, its giving me like PtSD and no matter what i say to express myself its an argument she will not apologize for making me feel this way or any of her actions. How do i deal with this? Has anyone experienced this?

I'm scared I'm at high risk, but I'm happy bc no matter what I'm becoming a mother?❤️ first pregnancy this is peace now❣️☺️